Hmm it's 12:45pm now and I am in the computer lab during my free period. I haven't blogged in a pretty long time and I thought maybe it's time to scribble some of my thoughts down and.....blab? Hahahaha **this is going to be a pretty incoherent post...**
This term is almost over and time really flew by. These first two months were super duper eventful and I am really thankful for all my loved ones. Those who were always there by me, those who believed me even when the whole world didn't :') You guys know who you are, so thank you honeybunches <3
During recess today something came up to my mind. Where will I be on the next 29th of February? What will I be doing, will my friends still be my friends, will I lose someone I love, will I still be in Singapore, how I will be living. I mean the future is just so
blurry now. I don't know what I want to be in the future, I don't even know which field I'd like to venture into. Will I be studying in university or will I be out working by then?
I am pretty sure that things will be very different in four years time. As pessimistic as it sounds, I will lose friends and fade away from some people's lives. I might not be as close as to my loved ones as I used to be.
I don't want to lose what I have right now. Everything might not be exactly perfect, but I love the way things are now.. Well I know that I have to cherish the things I have, I tell myself that every day. But sometimes I just can't seem to show it in actions and words even though
I am clearly aware that someday everything I have right now will be gone. I guess it's pretty true when people say that you'll never know what you have until you actually lose it..
Uncertain as the future may be, there's a phrase that always keeps me going on. "Que sera, sera." which means whatever will be, will be. I believe that there's no point in worrying about the future as of right now. Live your life to the fullest, aim to have no regrets and whatever will be, will be. After all, we cannot control the future and we cannot predict what's going to happen next time. What we can do right now is to live without regrets.
There are these things called "memories" for a reason right? So that we can relive moments in our head even when it's all over and things will never be the same again.
I have to go now, talk to you guys in a bit :-*
Till then,
fang rong xx